I can't sleep): so many random thoughts are swImming around in my head... I don't even know why I'm thinking these... Forbidden thoughts. I think my life is getting screwed. Why is it that we have separated agIn... Cliques within a clique. I'm starting to think that I would have been better just interacting with the other side. It's more... peaceful. No secrets(ok maybe just 1) hmm but that ain't so bad, considering the vast number of said secrets that we never reveal.
Are we afraid of sth? Are we afraid to share? Are we, am I really not to be trusted, that you all can't even tell me what's going on in your lives? Isn't it a natural thing to update me abt what's been going on?? I mean, no need to tell me the details or anything, but just, how your weekend has been? I don't need to know the latest gossip abt you, or anyone else. Seriously I'm not a gossip monger. And I know there are things you can't ever say, but I thought we were good friends...
I'm freaking incoherent now I don't even know what I'm typing. Tmr I'll be back to square 1 ... We'll be back to cracking jokes, talking rubbish. I think that's all we trust ourselves to say to each other.
There's nothing to envy us abt. I don't know why you ppl ever did in the first place. your lives are so much better...
What am I even doing... It's nothing you'll see anyway.
We're screwing up the best thing ever. Must everything be so political?
When I'm with you I'll make every second count cause i'll miss you whenever you're not around when I kiss you I still get butterflies years from now I'll make every second count
My songs don't make sense to me sometimes.
Btw typing with a touch is just ridiculous...
How is it that I feel like I have the worst life possible when I know so many ppl our there that have it much worse off than I will ever experience? I shouldn't even be feeling this way. There's so many things to be thankful for(: the sun, the sky, the roof over my head, the nice clothes, the financial freedom, even the grass... And yet here I am, complaining that life sucks... I'm ungrateful. I forget who gave me all these.
I think I should give and take. I should leave things be. We may be facing many setbacks, but I believe we'll get through this shit tgt. This shit that's called ALEVELS. Then maybe we can go for a roadtrip or sth. We'll get back to our happy place. Regular rock banding and doing rubbish. Sitting around and just talking. Feasting even, on our favourite ramen and whatever else(:
I know I'm asking for things that'll never happen, cause you ppl are just gonna run away, to different places. A gathering twice a year would suffice, but even I feel that this is too difficult... It's never gonna happen. I only have you to count on